Ulcers and Anxiety Attacks

I'm an impatient person... I'm a fast-paced person so being tied down and being told to wait is torture for me. The fact that there are extreme scenarios in the end and that I'm totally clueless as to what can and will happen does not make me feel any better.

I admit I have been eating less and have been a total slob with thinking nothing but what will happen at the end of this torture. My dad told me to be optimistic but cynic at the same time. It's kinda hard, though.

Last time I felt this and have been rewarded was when I was accepted into the school of my choice.

The last time I felt this and have been overwhelmingly depressed was when I knew an opportunity to start all over again never happened.

Both feelings have been different. The wait for both have been excrutiatingly painful. I guess I took both situations to full-scale attacks of anxiety and the feeling that this event will shake my future.

I guess anyone who had that at stake will reallly suffer ulcers and anxiety attacks.