The Day I Cried

I had a dream.

I dreamt God was with me. We were walking together. We were talking like we were friends. We were laughing, too.

Unfortunately, the path we were walking on was about to end.

God told me to keep walking as He stopped. I looked back, worried and afraid that I might never see Him again.

God smiled and said to me:

"I am with you, always."

I woke up and cried. And that was that.

I'm Not Crazy Enuf to be Honest

Some random xx thingy
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[] I wear glasses/need them.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 aafe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have (had) piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.--> does missing the school bus on purpose count?
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[ ] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in publicHealth
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.--> all of them!
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.--> didn't even miss school

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Asia.
[ ] I've been to Australia.
[ ] I've been to South America.
[ ] I've been to Antartica.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to America.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've been an abuse victim.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I love to flirt.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[ ] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I'm a stoner.
[ ] I've snorted cocaine.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic/have been.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self-harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[x] I see/have seen a therapist.--->guidance counts right? ;p

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own a designer purse, costing over $100
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from American Eagle.

Political/Social Attitudes
[ ] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[x] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm liberal.
[ ] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[x] I'm religious.
[x] I dress fairly modestly.
[x] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."

Random
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cellphone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] My answers are totally honest

Pre-Requisites

Now that I'm almost officially part of the labor force, I need to work on some papers and important aspects of being employed.

First off, woke up very early and took a quickie shower. Mom and I dropped off my sister in DLSU then proceeded to park in McDo. We had breakfast there before taking the LRT. It's been a while since I took the LRT and most of the time, I had used LRT3. At first, mom and I were bangag coz we forgot that we had to cross the street near Benilde and then go up the station.

We then bought tickets to Carriedo, where I can get my NBI clearance. I remembered the last time my mom and I rode on the LRT. I was around 6 years old. The old LRT used coins/tokens to pass through. There was no aircon yet and there were no carts for women and the elderly. It was very hot and humid, not to mention the stench of human sweat and hard work.

Anyway, I haven't been to that part of town [Carriedo] so I was a bit excited to go there. We went along Taft and saw some schools there, Emilio Aguinaldo, Phil. Christian University, Phil. Women's, etc.

When we got off Carriedo, I'm sure we looked like fools because mom was taking her personal trip down memory lane. We just stood in the middle of the place for about 3 minutes while people passed us by. She told me that this place used to be the rowdiest, most crowded part of old Manila. The roads where jeepneys used to passed through are gone. Instead, it was like a plaza. There were a lot of vendors, street kids and homeless people loittering about [it was only 8am] or sleeping in cartons and huge plastics. The place smelled like sewers and week-old garbage.

We then went to NBI and proceeded to some guy named Ferdie. My mom's nephew used to work here in the legal department before he moved to customs so we had connections. It's very convenient to have connections here in the Philippines. As long as you know key persons and have sufficient resources, it's as good as sitting in the couch at the comfort of your own home.

Mom and I went inside Quiapo church and said a little prayer. I said a little wish because it was my first time there. The church was impressive. I was also surprised to know that this church has been in existence for 400 years already. They said that wherever the church is, most of the important buildings are near it too. Provinces are like that.

We went around for a while, bought 2 pairs of step-ins for a hundred each; blouses; clips; and then we ate lunch at Jollibee. Mom went to the store she always goes to when she was in college and I can feel that nostalgia was coming onto her fast.

It's nice to know that your parents, once upon a time had been college students. I guess it was exciting to live at that time. Life was simpler then. It was appreciated more.

As for my TIN and SSS, I already have them but we decided to go to the regional offices and request for IDs.

All in all, this day was very productive. Mom and I got to spend more time with each other. I wish I had more moments like this with my mom. But it's because of these rare moments that I truly, really get to appreciate my mom.

Probably in different circumstance, she could've been my best friend. But I think I must have been a saint in a lifetime because God gave me the best mother one could ever have.

Tease me Baby!

People have a way of making us trust them and trust ourselves.

People test them. See if they're loyal. See if they'll take the bait.

Unfortunately, I'm a quitter. Well, not at first but when things become frustrating, there are times when you'd just want to give up on that person. I don't quit on a regular basis. In fact, I highly think of myself when it comes to sticking it. I'm an optimist. Even when it hurts, I still have hope.

In this particular case, I've waited and waited and waited. I trusted that person so much that to let go would be impossible with the way we were acquainted. There had been times when I really felt like I just wanna walk away. And recently, another issue was brought up. It was painful to think about the next day. Anxiety took its toll on me. It was hard. I struggled so much.

And then, when I felt like letting go, he suddenly comes to my rescue.

I finally give a huge sigh of relief and then berates him for doing this to me.

I imagine him chuckling and saying, "What is faith and hope when you don't put it to good use?"

Jesus Christ!

Definitely not Good

I could not believe it.

4 sips of lame-ass Vodka tonic just gave me one hell of a hangover!

I just couldn't believe it. I must be losing my touch. I woke up the next morning barely able to get down from the bunk bed. My head felt like it was going to lose its screws and roll away from my shoulders. My breath stinks of vodka even though I had brushed my teeth and gargled. I slept through most of the afternoon; waking again to find a hardcore headache. I felt those veins sticking out of my forehead.

God, I hate vodka!

I sure hope to God there weren't roofies in there.

Sayang ang Miles

Seriously, I'm getting so worked up trying to fix our KrisFlyer (Singapore Airlines' Frequent Flyer Program) accounts.

My 2005 miles were not credited because of online mishap. I could not access my account, preventing me to check-in online and check my mileage. Same thing with Pat and Anne's account. Mom had miles expiring so I had to extend them and paid about 1,000 miles. I still can't access Pat's account coz the email doesn't match the database's. I tried calling SQ (this is long distance at hindi mura!) and asked them to fix the error. They said they did it already but nothing happened.

Dad was pressuring me to keep all accounts and miles accounted for. He would use our miles so he could get a free ticket and take a vacation here in Manila. I swear I'm a terrible auditor.

Today, I checked all accounts, sans Pat's and had found out the trips we were requesting to be credited were included in the statement but was still not credited in the total miles (I only have 22,700 miles). I'm getting a headache!

Basta, ok na yung kay mom. Anne's 2005 miles were credited already. Mine were supposed to have been credited but were not part of the ending balance. Pat's account remains to be unopened.

Such stress! Sayang daw kasi ang miles.

Bum

I'm such a slob. Can't even keep 'em posting right.

This is laziness in it's purest form.

Blurred Days

As I've said to Fraggy when a third of R2 met in Glorietta, "Bumming is very hard. You wake up and you really don't know how to keep yourself occupied the whole day. You're not really motivated to do anything productive."

Sitting on a couch, blinding your eyes out from watching one too many DVDs and cartoons is a tiring job. A pointless and tiring job. One thing that keeps me going is the hope of actually getting a call from employers and giving me a job so I can stop mopping around and actually put some of the things I learned to good use.

There were 12 of us who had a sort-of reunion. There was me, Jake, Rofil, Iking, Karlo, Archie, Inca, Kris, Tiff, Ritz, Gi and Joan. We had dinner and beer over talks, jokes and kamustahans.

The next day, Friday, I woke up early and met with Iking and Tiff at Makati to go job hunting. It was my first time and I had fun. We gave resumes to companies we think could use our skills and abilities [daw!]. As Tiff and I went inside The Enterprise, there was a bit of commotion in there and we found out later that it was an earthquake drill. We decided to go to Philam Building in the meantime. As usual, we gave out resumes and then met Iking, who had an interview with Mozcom.

Unfortunately, I was unable to go with them because I was meeting Kim and Paolo for lunch. I thanked them and said goodbyes and then walked back to Glorietta. I met them at Tony Roma's and ate lunch. We then watched The Lakehouse [good movie] and played some arcade.

Another week ended and another is about to start.

All About War

Recently, my brother's become interested in war movies. Not the "Life is Beautiful" type but "Platoon" and "Saving Private Ryan" types. Dad brings home DVDs of old classic war films like "Battle of Britain" and "Tora, Tora" from Jakarta.

I have never been a fan of war movies or have interested myself with military and war topics. The first time I had a glimpse of war was in a book published by TIME. It was called, Life at War. It was a photo-journalism type of book that had snapshots from the 1st world war to the Vietnam War. You can see the history unfolding in each page. The shift from grainy, black and white, sepia photographs to standard colored pictures. From massive, one-direction-only tanks to maneuverable, all-terrain humvees and assault vehicles. Rifles to machine guns. Every type of technology evolved, even clothing and protective suits.

Necessity creates ingenuity. There are now better and faster ways to transport people. Better and faster ways to annihilate people. Better and faster ways to heal people. A propaganda to faithfully pledge allegiance to one's fatherland or motherland.

Better machines
Better medicine
Better food
Better arsenal
Better tactics
Better soldiers
Better vehicles and airplanes and submarines

But what strikes me the most about the book was the snippets of each soldier, just before ambushing the enemy, just before jumping into their foxholes and trenches, just before throwing a hand grenade. Captions below would say that this was the last time a soldier was seen alive. When you turn the page, you would then see his corpse, swimming in his blood. His comrades ransacking his rations before medics pull him back, as he is an obstacle to marching troops. A more gruesome truth is that the soldier was only 18 years.

In France, there was a parade of soldiers in the city square, soldiers hailed before they are marched off to war. There was a child from the side who ran to his father, who was a soldier, crying. The toddler would not let go of his father. A picture of innocence, tainted by the harsh metallic smell of rifles, ammunition and grenades.

War teaches us to be strong. To have hope when there is nothing else to do. To finally realize one's finity and to believe in a higher being. To realize the futility of killing even for greater glory. War teaches us to live. To strive to survive and be happy with the fact that you are alive. War is a sad story. Lives are torn apart and anybody who lives through this experience is never the same.

this is yenie's 2 cents worth on war with critical thinking done in 5 minutes. other factors or insights unmentioned may not have been thought of the goddess during the 5-minute discernment.
no research was done... you get the idea

Another for Nadal

Yesterday, we ate at Le Souffle in the Fort to celebrate Mom and Dad's 22nd wedding anniversary. Mom and I ate seafood as we were allergic to beef while Dad and Anne lunged at steaks and Pat had pasta. In my opinion, dessert was the best part of the meal. The souffle was perfect!

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When we got home, the French open final was ongoing. As usual, it was a battle between the 1st and 2nd seed. Nadal wanted to retain his dominance in clay court while Federer wanted to win a grand slam. In the

end, Nadal kept his title after 4 sets and won 60 consecutive matches on clay court. Yep, this 20 year old Spanish lefty is going places!


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I'm currently importing my old cds in Pagong. I can't believe I have Hanson's 1st CD! Basta I'm putting all songs and CDs I have.

Seeing Old Faces

Dad got home last night and was disappointed about the status of our house. Renovations were supposed to be done by June17, as stated in the contract. Until now, we don't have a 2nd floor, our kitchen is in ruins and the living and dining room is stacked with kitchen appliances, books from the attic and other stuff. It's crazy here and living here is a bit straining.

He was stopped by customs but because mom has a relative there, he was released unscathed.

Dad bought us a lot of stuff from Singapore. We took advantage of the Great Singapore Sale! I got a Shu Uemura pink basic kit and Japanese learning books while mom and Leanne got the jewelry they wanted. Dad bought us all Lacoste shirts.

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Last Friday, half of dp_bs met in Shang. The 2 last times I went to Shang, I parked at the same parking slot! Talk about luck. It was Gracie's request and we all chatted and had dinner. Abi, Ginny and I wore blue that night while Gracie and aR had matching black and red/pink outfits. Ginny got back from the States and gave us NY shirts.

Part of the plan was to watch a movie but all of us agreed that catching up on each other's stories were more important.

I had so much fun being with them. I wish there would be an opportunity for all of us to meet. Then Gracie can treat us out! hehe.

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That same Friday, I was stressed about the fact that I haven't received a phone call from my potential employers. That afternoon, I left my phone to mom while I took a bath.

While in the middle of my scrubbing, the much awaited Harry Potter ringtone echoed outside in the master's bedroom. I waited a few seconds and realized mom wasn't going to answer my phone.

With soap all over my body, I quickly grabbed my towel, wrapped it around and dashed outside. Mom was on another phone and I hurriedly went to my phone. Realizing it was a landline number, my heart skipped at least 5 beats before answering it.

It was from IBM! They are offering me a permanent position! I was very happy to hear that! A surge of relief echoed throughout my brain. I was still sane enough to hear that the lady on the phone told me to keep my line open as they will call me within the next week for another interview/discussion of salary, benefits, etc.

I thanked her and ended the call. It was my first job offer, and I was wrapped in a towel with soap suds everywhere. Talk about anecdotes!

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Last Thursday, I met with Kim and Paolo in Galleria [what is it with Ortigas???] to watch The Omen and just hang out. I went to the gym before meeting them there. Pao got back from the States a day before.

We ate Japanese food for lunch before hitting the silverscreens. We then went around, while talking and chatting.

I then promised them a lunch by next Friday with other high school friends.

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Life is good with friends by your side.

Just for the Heck of It.

Anime meme taken from magnetic_rose... which I got from Shabby

go through the list and check off the titles you have watched. for our purposes, "watching" a title means that for TV and OVA series, you have to have seen at least one episode all the way through. for one-shots, you have to have seen the whole thing. At the end of each genre/category, add up your sub-total. at the very end, add up the sub-totals to come up with your grand total. if your grand total is 80 or over, congratulations-- you are an obsessive anime watcher!

I. Action and Adventure
( ) .hack//SIGN
( ) Airmaster
( ) Battle Arena Toshinden
(x) Bleach
( ) Blood+
( ) Burst Angel
( ) City Hunter
( ) Cowboy Bebop
(x) Dragonball
(x) Flame of Recca
(x) GetBackers
( ) Inu Yasha
( ) Lupin III
( ) Mai-HiME
(x) Naruto
( ) One Piece
( ) Tenjou Tenge
( ) TRIGUN
(x) Saiyuki
(x) Yu Yu Hakusho

Total Here: 7/20

II. Comedy and Parody
( ) 2x2 = Shinobuden
( ) Adventures of the Mini Goddesses
( ) All Purpose Cultural Catgirl Nuku Nuku
( ) Azumanga Daioh
( ) Bokusatsu Tenshi Dokuro-chan
( ) Di Gi Charat
( ) Dragon Half
( ) Excel Saga
(x) Fruits Basket
( ) Galaxy Angel
(x) Here is Greenwood
( ) Kodomo no Omocha
(x) Kyou Kara Maou!
(x) Midori Days
( ) Pani Poni Dash
( ) Project A-ko
(x) Ranma 1/2
( ) Tenchi Muyo
( ) Those Who Hunt Elves
( ) Urusei Yatsura

Total Here: 5/20

III. Drama and Miscellaneous
( ) Beck
( ) Full Moon wo Sagashite
( ) Gankutsuou
( ) Genshiken
( ) Glass Mask
( ) Haibane Renmei
( ) Hitsuji no Uta
( ) Honey & Clover (Hachimitsu to Clover)
( ) Kaleido Star
( ) Last Exile
( ) Le Portraite de Petite Cossette
( ) Monster
( ) Paradise Kiss
(x) Princess Mononoke
( ) Read or Die OVA
( ) Speed Grapher
( ) Twin Spica
(x) Weiss Kreuz
( ) Wings of Honneamise
( ) Yakitate!! Japan

Total Here: 2/20

IV. Ecchi/Mature
( ) Agent AIKa
( ) Cutey Honey
( ) Ebichu
( ) Golden Boy
( ) Grenadier
( ) Hand Maid May
( ) He Is My Master
( ) Iketeru Futari
( ) La Blue Girl
( ) Lingerie Senshi Papillon Rose
( ) Mahoromatic
( ) Mezzo Forte
( ) Miyuki-chan in Wonderland
( ) My Dear Marie
( ) Najica Blitz Tactics
( ) Negima
( ) Puni Puni Poemy
( ) Urotsukidoji: Legend of the Overfiend
( ) Wicked City
( ) Yumeria

Total Here: 0/20

V. Fantasy and Supernatural
(x) Angel Sanctuary
( ) Aquarian Age
( ) Berserk
( ) El Hazard
( ) Final Fantasy Unlimited
(x) Fullmetal Alchemist
(x) Howl's Moving Castle
(x) Magic Knight Rayearth
( ) Mushishi
(x) Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind
( ) Record of Lodoss War
( ) Scrapped Princess
( ) Slayers
( ) Tales of Eternia
( ) Trinity Blood
( ) Tsubasa Chronicle
( ) Vampire Hunter D
( ) Violinist of Hameln
(x) Vision of Escaflowne
(x) X: TV

Total Here: 7/20

VI. Historical and Alternate History
( ) Anne of Green Gables
( ) Basilisk
( ) Barefoot Gen
( ) Chrono Crusade
(x) Grave of the Fireflies
( ) Fire Tripper
( ) Kaidomaru
( ) Legend of Condor Hero
( ) Millennium Actress
( ) Nadia - Secret of Blue Water
( ) Ninja Scroll
( ) Otogizoushi
( ) Peacemaker Kurogane
( ) Porco Rosso
( ) Rose of Versailles
(x) Rurouni Kenshin
( ) Samurai 7
(x) Samurai Champloo
( ) Steel Angel Kurumi
( ) Victorian Romance Emma

Total Here: 3/20

VII. Kids and Family
( ) Angelic Layer
( ) Astro Boy
( ) Beyblade
( ) Castle in the Sky
( ) Detective Conan
( ) Digimon
( ) Doraemon
( ) Hamtaro
( ) Kiki's Delivery Service
(x) Kimba the White Lion
( ) Monster Rancher
( ) My Neighbor Totoro
(x) Pokemon
( ) Samurai Pizza Cats
( ) Sazae-san
( ) SD Gundam Force
( ) Sonic X
( ) Speed Racer
(x) Spirited Away
( ) Yu-Gi-Oh

Total Here: 3/20

VIII. Magical Girls and Boys
(x) Cardcaptor Sakura
( ) DNAngel
( ) Earth Girl Arjuna
( ) Erementar Gerad
( ) Hime-chan no Ribbon
( ) Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne
( ) Magic Users Club
( ) Magical Girl Pretty Sammy
( ) Magical Stage Fancy La La
( ) Mahou no Star Magical Emi
( ) Mahou Shoujo Lyrical Nanoha
(x) Mythical Detective Loki Ragnarok
( ) Ojamajou DoReMi
( ) Oku-sama wa Mahou Shoujo
(x) Pretear
(x) Sailor Moon
( ) Saint Tail
( ) Tokyo Mew Mew
(x) Ultra Maniac
( ) Wedding Peach

Total Here: 5/20

IX. Romance
( ) Ah! My Goddess
( ) Ai Yori Aoshi
( ) Air
( ) Ayashi no Ceres
(x) Boys Be
( ) Chobits
(x) Fushigi Yuugi
( ) Hana Yori Dango
(x) His and Her Circumstances (KareKano)
( ) Kimagure Orange Road
( ) Kimi ga Nozomu Eien
( ) Love Hina
( ) Maison Ikkoku
( ) Marmalade Boy
( ) Peach Girl
( ) Piano
( ) Onegai Sensei
( ) SaiKano
( ) To Heart
( ) Video Girl Ai

Total Here: 3/20

X. Science-Fiction
( ) Appleseed
( ) Blue Seed
( ) Bubblegum Crisis (any)
( ) Crest of the Stars
( ) Galaxy Express 999
(x) Gundam (any)
( ) Macross (any)
( ) Outlaw Star
( ) Patlabor
( ) Planetes
( ) Please Save My Earth
( ) RahXephon
( ) Saber Marionette (any)
( ) s-CRY-ed
( ) Soukyuu no Fafner
( ) Space Battleship Yamato (Star Blazers)
( ) Stellvia
(x) Transformers (any)
( ) Voices of a Distant Star
( ) Xenosaga: The Animation

Total Here: 2/20

XI. Shounen-Ai and Shoujo-Ai
(x) Ai no Kusabi
(x) Descendants of Darkness (Yami no Matsuei)
(x) Earthian
( ) FAKE
(x) Fish in the Trap
( ) Galaxy Fraulin Yuna
(x) Gravitation <3
( ) Haru wo Daiteita
( ) Kannazuki no Miko
(x) Kizuna
(x) Lesson XX
(x) Loveless
( ) Maria-sama ga Miteru
( ) Mirage of Blaze
( ) Oniisama E
( ) Seikimatsu Darling
(x) Song of the Wind in the Trees
(x) Sukisho
( ) Yami to Boushi to Hon no Tabibito
( ) Zetsuai/Bronze

Total Here: 10/20

XII. Sports
( ) Ace wo Nerae
( ) Ashita no Joe
( ) Ayane's High Kick
( ) Baki the Grappler
( ) Battle Athletes
( ) Buzzer Beater
( ) Captain Tsubasa
( ) Eyeshield 21
( ) Ginban Kaleidoscope
( ) Hajime no Ippo
(x) Hikaru no Go
( ) Initial D
( ) Major
( ) Monkey Turn
( ) One Pound Gospel
(x) Prince of Tennis
( ) Princess Nine
(x) Slam Dunk
( ) Suzuka
( ) Wild Striker

Total Here: 3/20

XIII. Surreal and Psychological
( ) Akira
( ) Betterman
( ) Boogiepop Phantom
( ) Elfen Lied
( ) FLCL
( ) Gantz
( ) Ghost in the Shell (movie or TV)
(x) Hellsing
( ) Jigoku Shoujo
( ) Karas
( ) Madlax
( ) Melody of Oblivion
(x) Neon Genesis Evangelion
( ) Noir
( ) Paranoia Agent
( ) Perfect Blue
( ) Princess Tutu
( ) Revolutionary Girl Utena
( ) Serial Experiments Lain
( ) Texhnolyze

Total Here: 2/20

GRAND TOTAL: 53/260

I guess this means I have a lot of watching to do. ^_^ There are a lot of anime I have watched but have not yet finished it... like Honey to Clover, Azumanga Daioh, RahXephon...

Other anime I have finished:
Akazuki Cha-Cha
Sarah
Romeo's Blue Skies
Zenki

Ulcers and Anxiety Attacks

I'm an impatient person... I'm a fast-paced person so being tied down and being told to wait is torture for me. The fact that there are extreme scenarios in the end and that I'm totally clueless as to what can and will happen does not make me feel any better.

I admit I have been eating less and have been a total slob with thinking nothing but what will happen at the end of this torture. My dad told me to be optimistic but cynic at the same time. It's kinda hard, though.

Last time I felt this and have been rewarded was when I was accepted into the school of my choice.

The last time I felt this and have been overwhelmingly depressed was when I knew an opportunity to start all over again never happened.

Both feelings have been different. The wait for both have been excrutiatingly painful. I guess I took both situations to full-scale attacks of anxiety and the feeling that this event will shake my future.

I guess anyone who had that at stake will reallly suffer ulcers and anxiety attacks.

As soon as forever is through...

Dedicated to the man I fell in love with... he'll never know how much I love him.

Siblinghood

The first fact of life about my siblings is that I knew them before they knew themselves.

After a few months of living our separate lives, we had an opportunity to spend time together again. We watched X-Men, attended mass at Greenbelt Church, basically went out as friends.

It was a nice feeling, going out with my brother and sister. Our attachment with each other is on a different level. Something primal, something raw, something limitless. When I'm with Pat and Anne, there are things that I do only with them and never show it to my friends. Must be the fact that we've known each other and lived with each other all our lives.

The memories we have of each other are not just memories. They are milestones in our lives, witnessed by them.

While driving home, we talked about our disgusting habits as children and toddlers, specific events that only the 3 of us know and we would end up laughing like crazy as we reminisce the past.

It was great. Maybe I'm getting older...

Tribute to 80s rock and roll

They rock and I love them to death! For all 80s fans out there.