Internal Battles

I've been trying to stop thinking of taekwondo. It's kinda hard since it's been in my system for about 8 years now. I've been having withdrawal symptoms... the lethargy, loss of flexibility, the weight gain... all of it! My body's been so used to sweat itself out about three times a week and now that I don't, I've been overheating!

Gaaaahhh!

My body's craving for a victim... :-)

My hand's been itching to punch and my legs are tingling to knock something/one out.

A lot of people were asking me if I really did that stuff in "real life"- not in competitions and training- actually, I'm really glad I haven't used it at someone. Even if I know some self-defense techniques, the first rule is to always run away from danger. Fighting is always the last resort. Being a black belt doesn't guarantee a victory. If the guy's got a gun, just give your wallet and walk away quietly. The money inside is not worth your life.

I promised my parents I'd focus more on my studies since it's my last year in college. I've been preparing myself for something more wonderful, something more challenging and exciting. It's true that I won't make a career out of my sport... just a fulfilling pasttime. And I guess now's the time to close the page on that chapter of my life...

Thank you for the memories,

Thank you for the bruises,

Thank you for the black eyes,

Thank you for the sprains,

Thank you for the knee injury,

Thank you for the immeasurable anxiety and tension,

Thank you for my teammates,

Thank you for my coaches.

I wouldn't be who I am without them.