Childhood

Yesterday, I bought VCDs of Aladdin and Altantis. I watched them this afternoon and I could not shake the feeling of being young again. Cartoons are the best! I don't think I outgrew them. I wanted to go back to Makati and buy Hercules, The Little Mermaid and Sleeping Beauty. I'm on Disney fest mode.

Looking back, my childhood was a very good era. Despite the tantrums, locking people outside the house, throwing the vegetables from the crisper to the floor, being locked in the closer, eating wanton noodles at Luk Yuen, hugging Pagong while sucking an a bottle of milk (or Coke!), peeing on me whenever dad glared at me.... life was good.

I didn't need boys to make my life happy! I just needed me and a wild imagination to have fun.

No, I'm not bitter. I think I can let go of this once and for all. Jem said love never disappears, it's just transferred to another person. Haay, even Science can explain love. It's like matter, it can never be destroyed or created... ok, I'll shut up now.

This love, I can give to my dog, my parents, my siblings, my friends. I think that's better, right? Rather than pouring it on one person, not knowing if that person will love you back that intensely. I don't think I'm ready for that yet. I'm still afraid of getting hurt. So I'll just spread my love to the people closest to me!

I think that's a good idea... I can feel myself smiling now.