Not enough

I hate this feeling of going on vacation when everything back in the office is in shambles. I got this bad feedback from an equally bad customer (just my opinion). I swallowed it and moved on like nothing happened. I was really on the verge of telling him off that not everything is my fault and that there were gaps on his(her?) side too...

To top it off, my Project Manager was siding him (for lack of a better term) and was even encouraging scope creep! So much for his responsibility to the team. Sellena and I were left to fend off for ourselves. And I admit it, I was raw. I didn't have the skills I needed to push back, given a bitchy customer who always demanded but never gave his(her?) own requirements. Everything was supposed to be me.. test data, master data... what the..!?! He(she?) was upset(PMS-ing?) that it was still him(her?) who provided the scenarios.

I just feel so bad about it all. I know I can count on my partner, who has always been dependable and ever so reliable tech guy. But this time, I feel as if he's cleaning up after me. It saddens me to think that something like this would happen and I let it happen. *major angst coming up* I want to make it up to him, to Sellena, to all the people I've affected. I feel like a new hire again. *sigh*

Anti-murphy's Law

Dad called this evening to tell us very good news. It was very good news. Good news indeed.

Everyday, I tell myself that the bad things that happen to me are nothing if you count the blessings that you get. Why bother and let yourself down with negativity? I say that if bad things happen to you, good things will come your way. A life of smiles and positive thinking beats an attitude of always looking out for Murphy's law. Of course it's not a bad idea to take note of all the bad things that can happen to you but let's face it, the more you search for Murphy, the more it will hunt you down.

We had this dream that we thought was about to come true. It came crashing down on us and of course we were depressed. But we didn't let it get the best of us and just move on and do the best you can with what you have. And true enough, hard work always trumps luck.

One cannot help but realize that life doesn't always work out the way you want it to be. Sometimes the life you think is ideal never was bliss in the first place. The path to true happiness comes with pain and hardships. It is then when you can truly savor your accomplishments and blessings!

One Day at a Time

My office laptop broke down 2 hours before I was supposed to go to the airport for a much deserved vacation with dad in Jakarta. I was still hoping for the best by bringing it with me. It would be sad if I let my teammates down by not being available. True enough, it was already dead before it even boarded the plane.

Right now, I got sore eyes. And it feels unfair because the last thing I did was go swimming and I was swimming with mom, Pat and Anne... and they don't have sore eyes. It's itchy, it's irritating and I have alcohol everywhere with me to keep myself from spreading the love.

Still making the most of this vacation.. whatever happens!