Not enough

I hate this feeling of going on vacation when everything back in the office is in shambles. I got this bad feedback from an equally bad customer (just my opinion). I swallowed it and moved on like nothing happened. I was really on the verge of telling him off that not everything is my fault and that there were gaps on his(her?) side too...

To top it off, my Project Manager was siding him (for lack of a better term) and was even encouraging scope creep! So much for his responsibility to the team. Sellena and I were left to fend off for ourselves. And I admit it, I was raw. I didn't have the skills I needed to push back, given a bitchy customer who always demanded but never gave his(her?) own requirements. Everything was supposed to be me.. test data, master data... what the..!?! He(she?) was upset(PMS-ing?) that it was still him(her?) who provided the scenarios.

I just feel so bad about it all. I know I can count on my partner, who has always been dependable and ever so reliable tech guy. But this time, I feel as if he's cleaning up after me. It saddens me to think that something like this would happen and I let it happen. *major angst coming up* I want to make it up to him, to Sellena, to all the people I've affected. I feel like a new hire again. *sigh*

Mortified

I feel like such an idiot. And I hate the feeling that you know someone is very angry at you. Why didn't I just give the schedule to her? Why did I have to push myself to serve when it wasn't my schedule?

I failed to listen. I just walked away and did what I wanted to do. Ohmaigawd! I want to cry all over again when I think about it.

Boys are the denser sex.. so girls can't say they didn't know. We should've read the subliminal message.

Apologies are never enough. I wanna quit.