The one you love? The one who loves you?

Time and again... I've stuck in a crossroad, pondering which path to choose. And this time, it's not about choosing colleges and careers; both of which I can say proudly I chose well. And this time, I'm stuck in a crossroad that's equally important as my university and career. This can also change my life drastically.

Call me a cheesy sap but when I was little, I told myself that boys will always be yucky and icky and full of cooties. Oh how I ate those words!

Lovelife is as important as one's career and insurance. Although people rank it differently, once it's there on your list, it's all the same.

You can say I fell hard. I was smitten, infatuated and I giggle like a teenager whenever he'd pass me by. I thought I fell in love at first sight. I did everything I can to make him know I exist in this world. We became friends and after a few months (potah, slow lang talaga siya!), we were exchanging YMs, IMs, SMSs and other alphabetical means of communication.

My relationship with him is a lot slower than any other relationships I've had in my entire life. My friends think he's been living in a cave all this time not to notice that there are actually social graces, etiquette, norms and the like. He's hard to deal with... very fickle-minded and does not believe in planning ahead of time. If I were some other girl, I'd get impatient with him and just let him be... because that's my perception of him. It feels he's already contented with what he has and is not motivated by anything.

Here I am, playing the martyr, doing anything and everything... honestly, I've never done this for a guy and I'm really overextending myself with this person. I though to myself that if I continue what I'm doing now, I might have a shot at this. A shot to have a relationship with him.
And then I fell back to earth.

I met another guy who I feel is very much interested with me. It shows... he initiates every conversation we ever had. He invited me to movies and has been confiding me on his personal stuff. Isn't that enough sign? Of course, I don't want to assume but the way he treats me... I feel wanted. And I very much like what I'm feeling.

Now I'm torn... should I go to the one I like... or run to the arms of the one who (I think) likes me?

And here is the clincher... I think the infatuation spell's wearing off. I'm seeing things more clearly than before. Suddenly, my love interest isn't as good looking as he used to be...