Today was just not my day... I failed my Economics long test. And it's weight on my grade was very heavy. Di ko alam kung saan ko kukunin yung ibang points para pumasa. And to think that I passed Accounting and Finance, I thought the worst was over.
Maybe it's the test, maybe it's the teacher, maybe it's the subject, maybe it's me
I told my mom I was failing Eco...and she just replied to me (SMS) that it's ok, that I should do better next time and to take care. I didn't know if I should feel relieved or cry. If she's doing that for Reverse Psychology, it's working... more effectively than she'll ever know. But she's not like that. She's sincere in whatever she says... and I feel more disgusted with myself than ever.
And I really don't know what to say to Dad this Sunday. I have no excuse for failing. And the last thing I want to hear is the disappointment in his voice. It's heartbreaking. I'd rather die than hear that...
I drove home without my license. I forgot my wallet in my other bag... Lord, kung pagsubok lang to, mahina talaga ako sa mga ganyan... sana hindi lahat ng kamalasan mapunta sa akin sa isang araw, di ko kakayanin.
I couldn't stop thinking about it. And whenever I think about it, I feel like throwing up. I couldn't eat properly. I had ampalaya for dinner, and I didn't even complain about the bitterness exploding in my mouth. Chew and swallow. I didn't do anything today, just laid in bed. I didn't want to add any more incidents to my losing streak.
This is depression of the highest order in my college life... not even Accounting could top this off
1 comment:
aww, dont be depressed. You ought to think that it's just one of those days. I'm sure your dad will understand. I failed subjects before, but I think it's not so bad to fail. I mean, you have the chance to understand better the subject and make up for it. :) Did you get an email from me? Blast has a site already! :D
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