Thursday, May 28, 2009

Is this Friendship?

I've been looking back at this friendship with a person. She's very outspoken and hyperactive. She's a natural-born leader who takes command of a crowd. She's popular with the boys with her as she's very well-dressed every single day and wears flawless and flaterring make up. She's also honest and open with her close friends, including me.

But a downside to her personality is that whenever she's in a moody phase, she tackles anybody who dares to make a wrong muscle twitch in her direction. She's very sensitive to many issues. Being moody isn't a bad thing. It's when she directs all her hormonal-driven emotions to people who are not even concerned with her problems. It's like having a machine gun while blindfolded and just pull the trigger, uncaring of who gets hit.

I'm naturally a tactless person and more often than not, I tend to hurt people without me knowing. It's a bad habit of mine but sometimes I can't help it. It's a bad combination to put 2 persons together: tactless and sensitivity do not go well; and we've had our fair share of disagreements and major fights.

But now... I'm drawing the line. I know I did not do anything wrong. I don't want to apologize for something I did not commit. She doesn't want to talk about it, I want to talk about it. So it will never happen. I know this is my pride talking, but I also want to come out of this experience with lessons learned. Sometimes, you can't get along with other people, no matter what you try. You want to reach out and you're the type of person who wants to tackle issues but not everyone's like that.

If I am the one who always folds and just apologizes just to get it over and done with, is it really friendship? Is this what you call compromise?

I've learned to accept a person for who s/he is. But when that person does not accept me for who I am... I am not sure if this will work out.

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