Ano 'to?

I couldn't believe what just happened to me today!

I stayed until 6pm in school today because of our LAST guidance test. Me, AR, Ginny, Rina and Gracie went to National Bookstore with Abbie's car. It was raining so we were really thankful that she let us ride her car to National Bookstore.

We bought stuff and then ate at Jollibee.

Nung ambon nalang, I parted with them and went back to school where my car was parked. It was a bit traffic but I wasn't in a hurry to go home. Busog na eh! Being alone, you get to think about a lot of things. One of those things were what Gracie and I saw after our E-Pub class. It was Hyung and his 'girlfriend'... I put the " ' " in the girlfriend because I haven't heard from him personally that they were together. They looked happy...

And then suddenly, I started crying! As in I was bawling inside the car... I didn't know why... maybe it was the weather... maybe because I saw them after months and months of not seeing them. I guess it looked like the setting of a melancholic evening was perfect and my eyes just felt like releasing tears. Ang weird talaga...

I started calling Jem sa cellphone...and she's in the States! It rang for a while but then I hung up. I called Jeff, me best guy friend. It turned out they were having a choir practice. I felt bad but I started crying again and he panicked... I kept telling him that even after all these years, I still had feelings for him. And that it hurt so bad to see him with another... but I guess I was feeling selfish. He still has a right to be happy. And I'm still here, lurking and wishing I'd graduate early so I can get a boyfriend.

I don't hold anything against my parents from not letting me get a boyfriend. It hurt so much to do it but I guess it just shows that I love them more than any other guy that I would do anything for them. Silly me... but that's me.

Ewan, this day was weird for me. At first, I was happily chatting with my friends about That's Entertainment and Shake, Rattle and Roll... and suddenly, I'm crying my eyes out and talking to my best guy friend on the cellphone while driving in South Expressway for 15 minutes.

Ganun siguro talaga ang feeling pag nagmahal ka talaga... time doesn't heal all wounds. Sometimes, it just festers away and will keep you hurting for a long time.