Hindi dahil sa relihiyoso ang aking ina at mayroon akong titang madre.... pero sa tingin ko nakatulong din ang mga ito. Malaki ang pagtitiwala ko sa Diyos. Malaki ang paniniwala ko sa Diyos... na kung ano ang aking pagkukulang, iyun ang kanyang pinupuna. Kahit gaano ako ka-tradisyunal, mahilig pa rin ako magpamisa.
Sa Microeconomics na huling pagsusulit, nagpamisa ako. Sa awa ng Diyos, nakapasa kami ng aking mga kaibigan. Nagpamisa ulit ako ng Thanksgiving.
Nang kumuha ako ng pagsusulit para magbakasakaling makakuha ng scholarship, kinabahan ako sapagkat kalahati lang ang alam ko sa math. Nagpaturo ako ng calculus, trigonometry at kung anu-ano pang kabaliwan at kababalaghan sa aking mga kaibigan. Malaki ang pasasalamat ko sa kanila.
At dahil pambansa ang paghahanap ng mga iskolar, lalo akong nawalan ng pag-asa... pero hindi ako tumigil sa pagdasal.
Magtiwala kayo sa akin. Kahit sa tingin ninyo wala na kayong pag-asa at lahat na ng malas ay lalanghapin ninyo... huwag kayong mag atubiling humingi ng lakas ng loob sa Diyos. Naniniwala ako.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Plug-In ni Gracie
Today, during CS 156 class, Gracie told me something...
surprising
interesting
true
lahat daw ng DP malalaki ang boobs! At ano naman nakain niya para sabihin sa kin yun? Also, take note of the word LAHAT. Ok, so we have a guy in the group...
Guess that tells that Gracie doesn't like Jake right now...
Anyway, after she said that... I imagined things about my friends and certain parts of them that I don't have interest in. Just curiosity. ^___^ After a fast recollection about them... haha, napatawa nalang ako... totoo naman sinabi ni Gracie e. ^___^
surprising
interesting
true
lahat daw ng DP malalaki ang boobs! At ano naman nakain niya para sabihin sa kin yun? Also, take note of the word LAHAT. Ok, so we have a guy in the group...
Guess that tells that Gracie doesn't like Jake right now...
Anyway, after she said that... I imagined things about my friends and certain parts of them that I don't have interest in. Just curiosity. ^___^ After a fast recollection about them... haha, napatawa nalang ako... totoo naman sinabi ni Gracie e. ^___^
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Hangtime!
I thought Fridays would be bad because of a 5 and a half hour break and a 6-9 class. Boy was I wrong!
After my 1230 Philo class, Gracie and I were supposed to meet at the benches and go watch a movie. Iking and Inca were there. Then we started talking about 80s music. And I'm such a huge fan of that generation. I appreciate it more than the generation today. We were talking about the 80s songs that the contestants in American Idol 4 sang and became a hit. We began mentioning names and songs that were familiar and sang them out. I was so happy that I had friends who loved songs from the 80s. Back in high school, I couldn't relate to anyone. It seemed that everyone was intent on listening to the latest hip and R&B.
Then Inca showed my her selection of 80s music in her iPod and I was so surprised that she has "Only You". I've been looking for this song for ages! Turns out, she has a CD of the soundtrack or something. I love her so much! She has great taste.
Si Iking, mahilig din pala sa Reo Speedwagon. He's also been looking for some songs done by that band. Swerte niya! I'm a Reo Speedwagon fan and I even have the Greatest Hits CD. I remember my dad buying it for me.
Then Gracie and I went to Shangrila Mall and watched Mr&Mrs. Smith. I just couldn't take my eyes off both of them. Hehe. That was the 2nd time I watched a movie in Shangrila. The first time was with Jem when we watched Hitch. 6 lang kaming lahat sa sinehan!
I miss Jem! soooo much....
Our 6-9 class wasn't bad. I was sad that our groupings were assigned so there was no way we could be groupmates. But it was ok. Most of the people there were former classmates. In a way, it's a good opportunity to meet other ComTech majors.
After classes, we stayed out side and peeped on a faculty dancing in front of the PC. She didn't know we were watching! Jake, Iking, Rob and I walked with Gracie to her car. After that, the 4 of us went to 7/11 and Jake treated us to slurpee. Mayaman kasi. After eating, we went back to school and took pictures. It was crazy. We were crazy seniors not wanting to let go of college life. So we were savoring our final year.
After Rob went home, courtesy of Dino, we went our way to the field. We took pictures like crazy. There were people passing by but we didn't mind them. We're seniors and we're doing everything we can to remember our college life!
We then saw Rofil's silhouette and called him...
"Rajah!"
"Sheldon"
"Magto!"
"Cuts!"
Then Rofil had this crazy idea of taking pictures hangtime. That means we jump and the camera captures our hangtime. At first, we couldn't get it right...it was either we were too early or too late. I finally got the timing and boy were we flying!
Yung ibang pictures, kita tiyan ko kaya masagwa. I turned away from the camera and it got a great view of my ass while in flight! Hehe, that's better than my tummy! We all did poses until Jake and Iking ran out of space and battery. I got the running-jumping pose, Iking got the flying kick pose and Jake got the "Yoda" pose.
It was so funny! I'll post them when I get copies from Jake.
I got home at around 11pm but I didn't mind the sweating and the panting and the exertions. It was all for memories.
Hey, I don't mind Fridays na. It's a great way to bond with my friends.
After my 1230 Philo class, Gracie and I were supposed to meet at the benches and go watch a movie. Iking and Inca were there. Then we started talking about 80s music. And I'm such a huge fan of that generation. I appreciate it more than the generation today. We were talking about the 80s songs that the contestants in American Idol 4 sang and became a hit. We began mentioning names and songs that were familiar and sang them out. I was so happy that I had friends who loved songs from the 80s. Back in high school, I couldn't relate to anyone. It seemed that everyone was intent on listening to the latest hip and R&B.
Then Inca showed my her selection of 80s music in her iPod and I was so surprised that she has "Only You". I've been looking for this song for ages! Turns out, she has a CD of the soundtrack or something. I love her so much! She has great taste.
Si Iking, mahilig din pala sa Reo Speedwagon. He's also been looking for some songs done by that band. Swerte niya! I'm a Reo Speedwagon fan and I even have the Greatest Hits CD. I remember my dad buying it for me.
Then Gracie and I went to Shangrila Mall and watched Mr&Mrs. Smith. I just couldn't take my eyes off both of them. Hehe. That was the 2nd time I watched a movie in Shangrila. The first time was with Jem when we watched Hitch. 6 lang kaming lahat sa sinehan!
I miss Jem! soooo much....
Our 6-9 class wasn't bad. I was sad that our groupings were assigned so there was no way we could be groupmates. But it was ok. Most of the people there were former classmates. In a way, it's a good opportunity to meet other ComTech majors.
After classes, we stayed out side and peeped on a faculty dancing in front of the PC. She didn't know we were watching! Jake, Iking, Rob and I walked with Gracie to her car. After that, the 4 of us went to 7/11 and Jake treated us to slurpee. Mayaman kasi. After eating, we went back to school and took pictures. It was crazy. We were crazy seniors not wanting to let go of college life. So we were savoring our final year.
After Rob went home, courtesy of Dino, we went our way to the field. We took pictures like crazy. There were people passing by but we didn't mind them. We're seniors and we're doing everything we can to remember our college life!
We then saw Rofil's silhouette and called him...
"Rajah!"
"Sheldon"
"Magto!"
"Cuts!"
Then Rofil had this crazy idea of taking pictures hangtime. That means we jump and the camera captures our hangtime. At first, we couldn't get it right...it was either we were too early or too late. I finally got the timing and boy were we flying!
Yung ibang pictures, kita tiyan ko kaya masagwa. I turned away from the camera and it got a great view of my ass while in flight! Hehe, that's better than my tummy! We all did poses until Jake and Iking ran out of space and battery. I got the running-jumping pose, Iking got the flying kick pose and Jake got the "Yoda" pose.
It was so funny! I'll post them when I get copies from Jake.
I got home at around 11pm but I didn't mind the sweating and the panting and the exertions. It was all for memories.
Hey, I don't mind Fridays na. It's a great way to bond with my friends.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Ano 'to?
I couldn't believe what just happened to me today!
I stayed until 6pm in school today because of our LAST guidance test. Me, AR, Ginny, Rina and Gracie went to National Bookstore with Abbie's car. It was raining so we were really thankful that she let us ride her car to National Bookstore.
We bought stuff and then ate at Jollibee.
Nung ambon nalang, I parted with them and went back to school where my car was parked. It was a bit traffic but I wasn't in a hurry to go home. Busog na eh! Being alone, you get to think about a lot of things. One of those things were what Gracie and I saw after our E-Pub class. It was Hyung and his 'girlfriend'... I put the " ' " in the girlfriend because I haven't heard from him personally that they were together. They looked happy...
And then suddenly, I started crying! As in I was bawling inside the car... I didn't know why... maybe it was the weather... maybe because I saw them after months and months of not seeing them. I guess it looked like the setting of a melancholic evening was perfect and my eyes just felt like releasing tears. Ang weird talaga...
I started calling Jem sa cellphone...and she's in the States! It rang for a while but then I hung up. I called Jeff, me best guy friend. It turned out they were having a choir practice. I felt bad but I started crying again and he panicked... I kept telling him that even after all these years, I still had feelings for him. And that it hurt so bad to see him with another... but I guess I was feeling selfish. He still has a right to be happy. And I'm still here, lurking and wishing I'd graduate early so I can get a boyfriend.
I don't hold anything against my parents from not letting me get a boyfriend. It hurt so much to do it but I guess it just shows that I love them more than any other guy that I would do anything for them. Silly me... but that's me.
Ewan, this day was weird for me. At first, I was happily chatting with my friends about That's Entertainment and Shake, Rattle and Roll... and suddenly, I'm crying my eyes out and talking to my best guy friend on the cellphone while driving in South Expressway for 15 minutes.
Ganun siguro talaga ang feeling pag nagmahal ka talaga... time doesn't heal all wounds. Sometimes, it just festers away and will keep you hurting for a long time.
I stayed until 6pm in school today because of our LAST guidance test. Me, AR, Ginny, Rina and Gracie went to National Bookstore with Abbie's car. It was raining so we were really thankful that she let us ride her car to National Bookstore.
We bought stuff and then ate at Jollibee.
Nung ambon nalang, I parted with them and went back to school where my car was parked. It was a bit traffic but I wasn't in a hurry to go home. Busog na eh! Being alone, you get to think about a lot of things. One of those things were what Gracie and I saw after our E-Pub class. It was Hyung and his 'girlfriend'... I put the " ' " in the girlfriend because I haven't heard from him personally that they were together. They looked happy...
And then suddenly, I started crying! As in I was bawling inside the car... I didn't know why... maybe it was the weather... maybe because I saw them after months and months of not seeing them. I guess it looked like the setting of a melancholic evening was perfect and my eyes just felt like releasing tears. Ang weird talaga...
I started calling Jem sa cellphone...and she's in the States! It rang for a while but then I hung up. I called Jeff, me best guy friend. It turned out they were having a choir practice. I felt bad but I started crying again and he panicked... I kept telling him that even after all these years, I still had feelings for him. And that it hurt so bad to see him with another... but I guess I was feeling selfish. He still has a right to be happy. And I'm still here, lurking and wishing I'd graduate early so I can get a boyfriend.
I don't hold anything against my parents from not letting me get a boyfriend. It hurt so much to do it but I guess it just shows that I love them more than any other guy that I would do anything for them. Silly me... but that's me.
Ewan, this day was weird for me. At first, I was happily chatting with my friends about That's Entertainment and Shake, Rattle and Roll... and suddenly, I'm crying my eyes out and talking to my best guy friend on the cellphone while driving in South Expressway for 15 minutes.
Ganun siguro talaga ang feeling pag nagmahal ka talaga... time doesn't heal all wounds. Sometimes, it just festers away and will keep you hurting for a long time.
Monday, June 13, 2005
School Blues
The last time I remembered I was excited for school was my Grade School Years. The smell of new notebooks, newly plastic-covered books, new pencils in my super fancy (with different compartments) pencil case, and new school uniforms were so addicting. The plastic gave me a "high" feeling and I couldn't stop leafing through my new books.
This year is different. I'm now in my senior year in college. Can you believe that? When I was young(er), college seemed a million years away. And I'm finally here. tsk tsk tsk.
My friends were all-out in their "camera-whoring" career during the school year and I also plan to document every single event/moment/orals/defense/date/outing/etc. during this school year.
Aside from Philosophy and Theology, all my classes seem to be within my line of interest. And for that, I'm more excited to go to school. I felt bad my Philosophy was in English and my Theology was in Filipino (ideally, it should be the other way around) but people were telling me I got good teachers.
After college, I don't really know what I'll do. I tried my luck in applying for a postgraduate/special training scholarship in Japan where everything is paid for including allowance. I submitted all my credentials and requirements and they seemed to buy my reasons for studying Telecommunications under their program. I'm scheduled to have a Math, Japanese and English proficiency exam on June24. Surprisingly, I've been reviewing my High School Math and College Algebra since last week! I'm really praying that I get that scholarship, sobra! I've been praying twice now and reviewing Math, English and Japanese more than ever. It's like College Entrance Exams all over! I think this is the best step for me...as I don't want to work yet. Well, kung hindi talaga, wala akong magagawa.
Just hope for the best!
Pasukan na!!!
This year is different. I'm now in my senior year in college. Can you believe that? When I was young(er), college seemed a million years away. And I'm finally here. tsk tsk tsk.
My friends were all-out in their "camera-whoring" career during the school year and I also plan to document every single event/moment/orals/defense/date/outing/etc. during this school year.
Aside from Philosophy and Theology, all my classes seem to be within my line of interest. And for that, I'm more excited to go to school. I felt bad my Philosophy was in English and my Theology was in Filipino (ideally, it should be the other way around) but people were telling me I got good teachers.
After college, I don't really know what I'll do. I tried my luck in applying for a postgraduate/special training scholarship in Japan where everything is paid for including allowance. I submitted all my credentials and requirements and they seemed to buy my reasons for studying Telecommunications under their program. I'm scheduled to have a Math, Japanese and English proficiency exam on June24. Surprisingly, I've been reviewing my High School Math and College Algebra since last week! I'm really praying that I get that scholarship, sobra! I've been praying twice now and reviewing Math, English and Japanese more than ever. It's like College Entrance Exams all over! I think this is the best step for me...as I don't want to work yet. Well, kung hindi talaga, wala akong magagawa.
Just hope for the best!
Pasukan na!!!
Friday, June 10, 2005
E Bakit Ganun?
Kay tagal nang panahon ang nakalilipas. Sapat na upang kalimutan at ibaon sa ilalim ng aking kamalayan. Itinapos ko na ang yugtong iyon ng buhay ko. Matagal ko nang tinanggap ang katotohanan. Wala naman akong kapangyarihan upang pigilin ito. Sino nga naman ako para gawin ang bagay na iyun?
Pero naintidihan ko na kung bakit nangyari. At masaya ako na hindi ako gumawa ng kalokohan na dala ng emosyon. Masunuring bata. Masyadong masunurin nga lang.
Nagbabalik na naman. Dumami ang tauhan. Nagdadalawang-isip na naman ako. Hindi na mapakali. Bakit ba ayaw akong pabayaan? Tahimik na ang aking mundo. Masaya na ako (ngunit hindi kasingsaya ng dati). Wala na akong problemang ganyan. Pero ginugulo na naman ang aking isipan. Buti na lamang hindi pa pasukan. Pwede ko munang pagtuunan ng pansin.
Ngunit hindi ko maintindihan. Hindi lohikal ang mga galaw. Minsan ganito, sa susunod, hindi naman. Nang-aasar ba. Sarap tuhugin. Malabo talaga. Asymmetric information kasi e.
Sana, kahit ano ang mangyari, sana lahat maging masaya.
Basta, tatanggapin ko nalang. Wala naman akong magagawa diba?
Pero naintidihan ko na kung bakit nangyari. At masaya ako na hindi ako gumawa ng kalokohan na dala ng emosyon. Masunuring bata. Masyadong masunurin nga lang.
Nagbabalik na naman. Dumami ang tauhan. Nagdadalawang-isip na naman ako. Hindi na mapakali. Bakit ba ayaw akong pabayaan? Tahimik na ang aking mundo. Masaya na ako (ngunit hindi kasingsaya ng dati). Wala na akong problemang ganyan. Pero ginugulo na naman ang aking isipan. Buti na lamang hindi pa pasukan. Pwede ko munang pagtuunan ng pansin.
Ngunit hindi ko maintindihan. Hindi lohikal ang mga galaw. Minsan ganito, sa susunod, hindi naman. Nang-aasar ba. Sarap tuhugin. Malabo talaga. Asymmetric information kasi e.
Sana, kahit ano ang mangyari, sana lahat maging masaya.
Basta, tatanggapin ko nalang. Wala naman akong magagawa diba?
Friday, June 03, 2005
I think I died...
And went to heaven. Not only did I see my god, I talked and chatted with him. He was so fun to be with. A gentleman who's always there to help me with a smiling face and a willing body (when I need help with something--like shirts...)! And him being sweaty was not a problem with me. Pheromones on the loose! I was keeping myself in check before I get wild... it was hard
I thought I would fumble and be clumsy with everything but I found out that I feel like myself when I'm with him. He was friendly with me. He even patted my shoulder when he felt I was stressed with my surroundings. Grabe na toh! He touched me (not like that!) and I felt comforted.
Oh yeah, and I thank my friends... aR-Kris-Abi-Ginny-Rina-Gracie... for making this possible... for their unending encouragement---and souveniers.
Ok, I know I'm in manyak mode. So sue me... ngayon lang toh. This is the only time I'd be able to talk to him.
I thought I would fumble and be clumsy with everything but I found out that I feel like myself when I'm with him. He was friendly with me. He even patted my shoulder when he felt I was stressed with my surroundings. Grabe na toh! He touched me (not like that!) and I felt comforted.
Oh yeah, and I thank my friends... aR-Kris-Abi-Ginny-Rina-Gracie... for making this possible... for their unending encouragement---and souveniers.
Ok, I know I'm in manyak mode. So sue me... ngayon lang toh. This is the only time I'd be able to talk to him.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Prayers and Nostalgic Shows
I went to get my grades and regform today... I couldn't believe what my grades were in MicroEco and PolSci! Sobra...
That's why today, I biked to the Church and asked for a Thanksgiving mass. I felt tired easily and my legs cramped up... wala nang exercise... but I was happy. Today is the first Wednesday and it's also Sacred Heart of Jesus. What happened today was not just Divine Intervention... it was more than that. The power of prayer I guess.
I immediately called my Mom and sent an SMS to Dad about my grades. They were both happy that my grades weren't really a bloodbash this summer.
I went to Greenhills and bought a DVD of Takeshi's Castle. It was fun... my siblings and I were laughing as the Japanese contestants got creamed, hit, run over, fell, attacked, etc. The downside of it was that it was dubbed by the bloody British! Their punchlines weren't that good! I still believe in Anjo Yllana and Smokey Manaloto as they endorse Mentos in Mint and Ultra Fresh.
"uh, that contestant just rolled into one of those box of school.." what was that???
"Ah, box of SKULL pala!"
Bloody British dubber! He wasn't funny in the least.
But the point was that we enjoyed reminiscing those times every Sunday as we hurt our stomachs laughing.
At last, my day was going right.
Thank you GOD! You're really great and you've made me participate more in the mass. But not THAT great yet to make me say a Vow of Chastity and enter a convent.
That's why today, I biked to the Church and asked for a Thanksgiving mass. I felt tired easily and my legs cramped up... wala nang exercise... but I was happy. Today is the first Wednesday and it's also Sacred Heart of Jesus. What happened today was not just Divine Intervention... it was more than that. The power of prayer I guess.
I immediately called my Mom and sent an SMS to Dad about my grades. They were both happy that my grades weren't really a bloodbash this summer.
I went to Greenhills and bought a DVD of Takeshi's Castle. It was fun... my siblings and I were laughing as the Japanese contestants got creamed, hit, run over, fell, attacked, etc. The downside of it was that it was dubbed by the bloody British! Their punchlines weren't that good! I still believe in Anjo Yllana and Smokey Manaloto as they endorse Mentos in Mint and Ultra Fresh.
"uh, that contestant just rolled into one of those box of school.." what was that???
"Ah, box of SKULL pala!"
Bloody British dubber! He wasn't funny in the least.
But the point was that we enjoyed reminiscing those times every Sunday as we hurt our stomachs laughing.
At last, my day was going right.
Thank you GOD! You're really great and you've made me participate more in the mass. But not THAT great yet to make me say a Vow of Chastity and enter a convent.
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