Ouch

I got into a fight and that made me feel alienated for about 3 months from close people. I took the initiative and after two attempts, I finally got a response. Of course, I was happy but I felt a little bit sad that I was getting the impression that what happened the past months didn't happen. It was like picking off from where we left and that was it.

I had a lot of questions but decided not to ask them. What's important now is that the friendship that was torn is now mended... how and why, I might never know myself.

Not all people seem to agree with the way I deal with things, or talk about it. Frankly, I'm quite frank, sometimes bordering on tactlessness. One of my closest friends confronted me about it. She told me I was being too harsh when I talk about some things. Whenever I talk, it was always bullseye, without any regard for feelings. Of course, I apologized for being so callous and everything was fine in the end.

But why? Why go all this trouble to erase everything she had of me? Was it that harsh? Was I such a callous, tactless bitch that it was worth almost 2 years of friendship? I couldn't understand, I wanted to understand but I didn't want to go through hell again with what happened. Sure, I know how to cope... and everyone knows the world never revolves around anyone, but I'm tired to these mindless games and guessing every single wrong thing you said. It's not fair, I got hurt too.