Walking makes me think

Here's what you get for walking 10minutes on each leg from the parking lot to RSC... the parking lot far, far away had a fixed rate so I'm willing to keep the additional 100 to myself and just walk.

The weather was relatively cool and pleasant since it's still late January. Cool but not raining so it's nice to go outside for a lovely walk with my laptop on my back. Walking alone makes it much easier to think. Your body's on autopilot, already knowing how to get to your destination. Your mind's just blank and idle enough to think about things...

Yesterday I took the opportunity to go to Kim's office and hang out there until 6pm. We then ate at Food Park and smelled like grilled food. Despite the fact that we just met up last Sunday, we still had a lot to talk about. And since it's a girls' dinner out, we got to get out a lot of our personal, professional frustrations on the table, together with my sisig and her carbonara. We parted ways around 7pm. She wanted to go home before it got too late and I had to buy groceries (aka junk food and canned coffee). As I went down the escalator, the conversation I had with a friend replayed in my head. It was a frustrating one. It was like trying to teach a dog to purr. What I wanted him to understand in a sub-level could never reach him. He was still playing the literal game.

Choosing between Fig Newtons and Wheaties, I was also contemplating if I should still pursue something that I know is very hard to attain or just to give up and look for greener (and less dense) pastures. A lot of people have been telling me to go ahead and take the risk. I'm still young and young is the best time to make mistakes without too much regrets. On the other hand, I'm seriously deciding to get over this very emotional phase and look at it from an objective stand. I've done a lot of thinking, recalling, reminiscing (?!) about it and I guess there is still time.


Today, as I started walking to RSC, I did some objective assessment. All throughout the walk, I was very much convinced not to let go, yet. Why? Because from what I see, there is improvement. Compared to others, there was still hesitation and density is as great as Jupiter's. But of course, knowing the track record, it was already a big change.

I did more contemplating walking back to the carpark, depositing my laptop before heading to SM to buy pants that were 50% off. I bought cologne I was dying to try and bought myself a nice red top for our team meeting. I just realized I didn't have that much red in my closet.

I ended up buying burger mcdo and a hot fudge sundae. All in all... should I decide to pursue this little project of mine, I think I'd want my expectations to be very much lower than standard. Not to expect anything out of it until the very end. If I keep thinking that, I guess I'm alright.

..reaches into a bag of potato chips..