I've never endured such hardships in my life before. And whenever I do, I try my best to keep my head up high and accept it like there's a better opportunity waiting for me. They say that God does not give challenges we can not handle. It's best that we leave it to Him. Wouldn't want to interfere with the cosmos of things.
Still, I'm optimistic about my future. After all, I am not merely a spectator. What is past is past, what I can work for now is my future. When I think about it, I am already lucky to be surrounded by loving and supportive people. I think that alone makes me very thankful and blessed.
A friend told me that you can never feel extreme happiness if you've never experienced extreme sadness. I guess it's true. You'll never know how much a person means to you until that person is gone. You'll never appreciate money, wealth and power unless you've had the chance to feel like scum.
But there are times that you just can't help feeling sad. That you just want the day to end quickly and never go out of the bed. But when you just can't help it, putting on a mask is more troublesome and tiring. A fake smile is harder to conjure. It stresses your facial muscles. It's not an unconscious reaction. It takes more effort... And at the end of the day, you feel more tired, more sad than ever.
Beware of your friends who are the most happy, the most carefree and the most playful... Take the time to think about it. Why do you think they're so happy?
We all wear masks...And we are afraid to go out without them. That when people see our true selves, they would never talk to us again. I'm sure you have a mask; for every occasion, for every person you know. It's ok to wear a mask, as long as you're not hurting people. White lies are ok, as long you don't weave a web full of lies and BS.
I admit I sometimes wear masks when I'm with my friends...And to my family as well. If I'm totally honest with them, I would have no face to show.
Where am I going with this rambling?
I have no idea...
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