I've been thinking about this person. They say that the more you got to know a person, the more you will learn about the not-so-good side of this person. I got this experience last week.
After a guesting at an early morning show *ahem*celebrity*ahem*, I asked for this person's comments on how I did in the program. And just to plug in, it was my favorite not-so-child-anymore TV host, Atom, who interviewed us...
After I had my picture taken with him in the set, I told him I was a fan since his 5-and-Up days. He laughed and thanked me. I also shook his hand and told him it was nice to meet him in person.... dreams can come true!
Ahem, back to my story...
To my surprise and utter disappointment, that person said something that was unforgivable. It was not a funny joke. It was a low-blow insult that I would never ever expect from that certain someone. And to give you a clue, the insult was not directed at me. And that person had the audacity to laugh (in SMS, of course) and shrug it away as if it was nothing.
That meant so much to me and I made that person see that, but unfortunately, the tactlessness was unleashed.
No, I was never a sensitive person. In fact, I'm a tactless person too. Yes, what that person said was that bad.
Now, I learned that you shouldn't trust people as soon as you know them. Remember their masks...
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Past
I've been thinking about this guy. They say that the more you got to know a person, the more you will learn about the not-so-good side of this person. I got this experience last week.
After a guesting at an early morning show *ahem*celebrity*ahem*, I asked for this person's comments on how I did in the program. And just to plug in, it was my favorite not-so-child-anymore TV host, Atom, who interviewed us...
After I had my picture taken with him in the set, I told him I was a fan since his 5-and-Up days. He laughed and thanked me. I also shook his hand and told him it was nice to meet him in person.... dreams can come true!
Ahem, back to my story...
To my surprise and utter disappointment, that person said something that was unforgivable. It was not a funny joke. It was a low-blow insult that I would never ever expect from that certain someone. And to give you a clue, the insult was not directed at me. And that person had the audacity to laugh (in SMS, of course) and shrug it away as if it was nothing.
That meant so much to me and I made that person see that, but unfortunately, the tactlessness was unleashed.
No, I was never a sensitive person. In fact, I'm a tactless person too. Yes, what that person said was that bad.
Now, I learned that you shouldn't trust people as soon as you know them. Remember their masks...
After a guesting at an early morning show *ahem*celebrity*ahem*, I asked for this person's comments on how I did in the program. And just to plug in, it was my favorite not-so-child-anymore TV host, Atom, who interviewed us...
After I had my picture taken with him in the set, I told him I was a fan since his 5-and-Up days. He laughed and thanked me. I also shook his hand and told him it was nice to meet him in person.... dreams can come true!
Ahem, back to my story...
To my surprise and utter disappointment, that person said something that was unforgivable. It was not a funny joke. It was a low-blow insult that I would never ever expect from that certain someone. And to give you a clue, the insult was not directed at me. And that person had the audacity to laugh (in SMS, of course) and shrug it away as if it was nothing.
That meant so much to me and I made that person see that, but unfortunately, the tactlessness was unleashed.
No, I was never a sensitive person. In fact, I'm a tactless person too. Yes, what that person said was that bad.
Now, I learned that you shouldn't trust people as soon as you know them. Remember their masks...
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Bonding
Dad's here!!! For a 4-day holiday. He sent an SMS to mom last Friday that he's taking the early flight to Singapore and the afternoon flight to Manila on Saturday. It was quite a good coincidence because we were in dire straits in our finance. No offense to our CFO but there are some things that we were all stuck in.
Unfortunately, I wasn't able to fetch dad in the airport and buy chips and chocolates at Duty Free. I promised my teammates I would cheer for them in the 68th UAAP. I saw a lot of potential for our rookies. I saw a lot of improvement from my old teammates and I'm really proud if them! I also met with Noel, who came back from Australia for vacation (?).
I began to realize how much I miss my teammates. But then, looking back, I realized how much time I spent with my barkada...which was not really that much. In a way, I'm glad I'm spending more time with my barkada.
To celebrate the Chinese New Year, we ate at Good Earth at the Fort. We then bought doughnuts and ice cream then went home to take naps.
Well, we're not really Chinese... but it's nice to celebrate holidays with family.
Unfortunately, I wasn't able to fetch dad in the airport and buy chips and chocolates at Duty Free. I promised my teammates I would cheer for them in the 68th UAAP. I saw a lot of potential for our rookies. I saw a lot of improvement from my old teammates and I'm really proud if them! I also met with Noel, who came back from Australia for vacation (?).
I began to realize how much I miss my teammates. But then, looking back, I realized how much time I spent with my barkada...which was not really that much. In a way, I'm glad I'm spending more time with my barkada.
To celebrate the Chinese New Year, we ate at Good Earth at the Fort. We then bought doughnuts and ice cream then went home to take naps.
Well, we're not really Chinese... but it's nice to celebrate holidays with family.
Monday, January 23, 2006
Sablay
I'm finally nearing the goal that I've been waiting for all my life: Finish College.
And all I'm ever getting so far is HELL
I'm just so frustrated with everything.
This has got to be one of the most challenging weeks I've faced.
I'm just glad I'm not that desperate to do drastic things.
So far, I'm keeping my head above water.
I really wanted this to be over... but I don't want to let go of college yet...
But I keep screwing things up! ALL THE TIME
This is getting tiresome.
And all I'm ever getting so far is HELL
I'm just so frustrated with everything.
This has got to be one of the most challenging weeks I've faced.
I'm just glad I'm not that desperate to do drastic things.
So far, I'm keeping my head above water.
I really wanted this to be over... but I don't want to let go of college yet...
But I keep screwing things up! ALL THE TIME
This is getting tiresome.
Monday, January 16, 2006
Stiff Upper Lip
I've never endured such hardships in my life before. And whenever I do, I try my best to keep my head up high and accept it like there's a better opportunity waiting for me. They say that God does not give challenges we can not handle. It's best that we leave it to Him. Wouldn't want to interfere with the cosmos of things.
Still, I'm optimistic about my future. After all, I am not merely a spectator. What is past is past, what I can work for now is my future. When I think about it, I am already lucky to be surrounded by loving and supportive people. I think that alone makes me very thankful and blessed.
A friend told me that you can never feel extreme happiness if you've never experienced extreme sadness. I guess it's true. You'll never know how much a person means to you until that person is gone. You'll never appreciate money, wealth and power unless you've had the chance to feel like scum.
But there are times that you just can't help feeling sad. That you just want the day to end quickly and never go out of the bed. But when you just can't help it, putting on a mask is more troublesome and tiring. A fake smile is harder to conjure. It stresses your facial muscles. It's not an unconscious reaction. It takes more effort... And at the end of the day, you feel more tired, more sad than ever.
Beware of your friends who are the most happy, the most carefree and the most playful... Take the time to think about it. Why do you think they're so happy?
We all wear masks...And we are afraid to go out without them. That when people see our true selves, they would never talk to us again. I'm sure you have a mask; for every occasion, for every person you know. It's ok to wear a mask, as long as you're not hurting people. White lies are ok, as long you don't weave a web full of lies and BS.
I admit I sometimes wear masks when I'm with my friends...And to my family as well. If I'm totally honest with them, I would have no face to show.
Where am I going with this rambling?
I have no idea...
Still, I'm optimistic about my future. After all, I am not merely a spectator. What is past is past, what I can work for now is my future. When I think about it, I am already lucky to be surrounded by loving and supportive people. I think that alone makes me very thankful and blessed.
A friend told me that you can never feel extreme happiness if you've never experienced extreme sadness. I guess it's true. You'll never know how much a person means to you until that person is gone. You'll never appreciate money, wealth and power unless you've had the chance to feel like scum.
But there are times that you just can't help feeling sad. That you just want the day to end quickly and never go out of the bed. But when you just can't help it, putting on a mask is more troublesome and tiring. A fake smile is harder to conjure. It stresses your facial muscles. It's not an unconscious reaction. It takes more effort... And at the end of the day, you feel more tired, more sad than ever.
Beware of your friends who are the most happy, the most carefree and the most playful... Take the time to think about it. Why do you think they're so happy?
We all wear masks...And we are afraid to go out without them. That when people see our true selves, they would never talk to us again. I'm sure you have a mask; for every occasion, for every person you know. It's ok to wear a mask, as long as you're not hurting people. White lies are ok, as long you don't weave a web full of lies and BS.
I admit I sometimes wear masks when I'm with my friends...And to my family as well. If I'm totally honest with them, I would have no face to show.
Where am I going with this rambling?
I have no idea...
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Still Alive
I'll be 21 tomorrow!!!
Haven't blogged in a while... was kinda lazy to update
Not to mention the fact that I have deadlines right and left.
I love weekends! They're the only time I get to sleep and wake up without an alarm clock. God bless Saturdays and Sundays.
Well, anyway, just to let people I'm still alive... though with eyebags already....
Haven't blogged in a while... was kinda lazy to update
Not to mention the fact that I have deadlines right and left.
I love weekends! They're the only time I get to sleep and wake up without an alarm clock. God bless Saturdays and Sundays.
Well, anyway, just to let people I'm still alive... though with eyebags already....
Thursday, January 05, 2006
The Year that Was, Is and Will Be
2005 was the year that...
1. I had a makeover
2. Got over someone...
3. ... and found a guy worthy of my time...
4. I almost had it
5. I was given an opportunity to study abroad...and I'm still waiting for the results
6. I liked a teacher *wink*
7. I found out someone liked me for a long time. ha!
8. I finally had to let go of taekwondo
9. I tried cosplaying... it was so fun!
10. I missed my two best friends
11. I spent so much time at a barkada's house for school work
12. I went partying until 3 in the morning
13. I started blogging
14. I finally tossed out stuff that I didn't need (I can see my floor now)
15. I got so obsessed with angst (not in real life, of course)
16. I spent Friday late nights in McDo and in the field, taking pictures
17. I slept over at a guy's house, with his brothers in the room. hehe!
18. I got so close with my barkada
19. I got things I didn't want to have
20. I felt really close to God
For all my blessings, in disguise or not, I am thankful.
For the cherished memories and unforgettable moments, I will engrave in my heart and mind.
For the mistakes and the frustration, I will remember so I won't do it again.
For the secrets and revelations, I will bring with me to the grave.
And for the coming year, more surprises and more adventures.
1. I had a makeover
2. Got over someone...
3. ... and found a guy worthy of my time...
4. I almost had it
5. I was given an opportunity to study abroad...and I'm still waiting for the results
6. I liked a teacher *wink*
7. I found out someone liked me for a long time. ha!
8. I finally had to let go of taekwondo
9. I tried cosplaying... it was so fun!
10. I missed my two best friends
11. I spent so much time at a barkada's house for school work
12. I went partying until 3 in the morning
13. I started blogging
14. I finally tossed out stuff that I didn't need (I can see my floor now)
15. I got so obsessed with angst (not in real life, of course)
16. I spent Friday late nights in McDo and in the field, taking pictures
17. I slept over at a guy's house, with his brothers in the room. hehe!
18. I got so close with my barkada
19. I got things I didn't want to have
20. I felt really close to God
For all my blessings, in disguise or not, I am thankful.
For the cherished memories and unforgettable moments, I will engrave in my heart and mind.
For the mistakes and the frustration, I will remember so I won't do it again.
For the secrets and revelations, I will bring with me to the grave.
And for the coming year, more surprises and more adventures.
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