*sigh*

I let someone down...

I feel really bad about it. No matter how I try, I'm always an inch from reaching it. My efforts were nothing in the end. The ruthless and countless days spent did not count at all. It was all in vain.

Sometimes, I ask why things like this happen. When you thought everything was going your way... it all comes down, crashing in the end.

The feeling of letting someone down is worse than letting yourself down.

It's like when you fall down very hard. You open your mouth to take a deep breath but no air comes in... then it feels like someone shoved their fist in your stomach and started mashing it in.

I had thought I was so focused and so confident. Such a shame, noh?

I really really hate this feeling. A feeling I've been having lately.