You Will Be Utterly, Sincerely Missed

Aside from Pagong, I have never felt a connection unlike my bracelet. It had been in my possession for more than 10 years now.

I got it from a silver shop called Ansor's Silver in Yogyakarta, Indonesia. They have the finest silver jewelry in Asia. Craftmanship was superb and the designs were absolutely out of this world. I wasn't fond of jewelry or silver that time (I was in Grade 6) but as I laid my eyes on it, I fell in love. The swirl of silver around 2 mother of pearl ellipses were simple yet stunning.

Since then, I wore it everyday for the next 10 years. It was pliant and flexible. It matches anything from jeans to evening dresses.

Last week, I noticed it was starting to break in the middle. I was hoping that it can be fixed by just melting it and then forming it again, at least just to mold it back together. I went to a renowned jeweler in Makati, confident that the best can fix this. I had it appraised/inspected (?) and was saddened to know that the material itself had weakened, causing it to crack.

They told me that they can solder it back but they can not assure that it will be what it used to be. 2,000 pesos was very steep for me, coupled with the fact that anytime, it can crack and break again... If they can fix it back for 2,000 pesos, I would gladly pay 5,000 pesos for that.

Sadness... T_T

A Sense of Fulfillment

Finally, the Star Wars saga is completed (in cable, though). The feeling is different compared to watching it in the movies. Of course, the feeling is exhilarating when you watch it with other people in cinemas but the fact that it is being aired in cable is something else.

Anyway, I love Star Wars! <-- and I think I've said this for the nth time.

When I was little, I had this crush on Luke and Han. I'm thinking Princess Leia is so lucky. ^__^


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My birthday turned out great! Well, any other birthday celebration is better than last year's. LOL! No major incidents. I'd like to give special mention to my officemates who wore red for me on my birthday: Aaron, Louie, Bev, Carlos (who changed into a black outfit that evening) and RJ. All my love for them!

Dad called that morning as well as I got emails and SMSs from my friends and relatives. I answered each and every one of them to let them know that I appreciate their greetings.

Ate with my officemates at my favorite resto, Ohana. We then had a celebration dinner at Dampa near Home Depot... which was from our victory from HP's Christmas Party. We then headed Eastwood where I treated them to desserts and drinks. There were a few dares, wherein most of them were wonderfully documented (thanks to handy dandy digital cameras).


That weekend, I spent my Saturday with Kim and Paulo. We met at Kim's place where she decided to change her clothes... I was in porma mode in a blue top, white skirt and strappies. They gave me a cute tissue holder and Pau gave me a model kit of Eternal (Gundam Seed Destiny).

We ate at Omakase in Tomas Morato with Pau as the financier of the lunch. We then went to Megamall where Kim and I had a girl bonding foot spa at Tips n Toes. We went to some of the arcades and played Guitar Freaks. Anne and I dropped them off at Robinsons Galleria before going home.

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Yesterday, I met with my teammates, Ali, Paolo and Rach. We ate at Mister Kabab in Quezon Ave. We then met up with Jerwin, Val and their dates in Punchline. I went there before, with Dino and Rach on my 19th birthday. There, the gay comedians were making fun of poor boys sitting in the front.

"Paliligayahin kita..." (with fondling of the chest)

"Isang gabi lang ang kailangan at hindi ka na babalik..." (holding hands with the boy)

"Secure na ang kinabukasan ninyo sa akin..." (dedicating a song to the boy)

*shudders from the point of view from a poor boy*


After that, Rach and I decided to bond and spend more time with each other at Starbucks, Katipunan. We had so much to talk about; after all she was my buddy and roommate during college!

Panic Button: ON!

Now's the time to be paranoid...in a good way (if there is such)...

I'm dreading my birthday right now... there seems to be a yearly trend for me especially January...

Like mom always says, 'Prevention is ALWAYS better than cure'.

A single moment of weakness can lead you to heavy repercussions. And I'm usually a person who does not let go of things/issues very lightly. It usually swims in my mind at night, when I'm alone and I have nothing better to do than ponder and think about what happened, what should have happened and what will never happen again.

Panic Button: ON~!

Losing and Finding

All our lives, we are always looking and searching.

Searching for our soulmate...

Searching for our mothers in a sea of people during Christmas time...

Searching for the perfect blend of coffee...

Searching for the perfect candidate...

Searching for our lost dog...

We're always searching and most of the time, it's when we are searching that we begin to realize how important it is in our lives. And it's when we finally give up hope in looking for it, it seems to appear out of nowhere, back in our lives.

January is a fickle month for me. Nevermind my birthday... it's always this time of the year when I am tested, punished, rewarded and surprised.

Today I bought some things for myself. By some weird circumstance (or sheer stupidity), I left it. When I went back to look for it, the guards told me that they were taken by someone else. I didn't have the heart to shout at them. It's always like this. But last year was worse. That one really tore me apart.

I had to go back to the store to buy those things again but didn't buy all of them. As I paid for them halfheartedly, I was telling myself not to celebrate my birthday. Now's not the time. I may be one year older but I don't think I'm one year wiser.

But there was also another realization. I did not buy (again) the things I didn't really need. I guess it was a sign never to buy impulsively because the things that you think you need... you really don't need them!

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Just last Saturday, my guy best friend told me his dog had died on his mom's lap. I've known his dog, Erap. He'd been in the family for 10 years now. I first met him while I was in high school. He was very friendly, well-trained... he was loved very much. He and his mom were both depressed that time. Who wouldn't?

This loss is so much greater than my stupid impulses. Thinking about it, material loss is the shallowest loss ever. Losing some thing is nothing compared to losing your career, dearest pet or your loved one.

That's why, thinking about it all over again... losing my stuff isn't so bad... actually, it helped me take out things I don't need to be a better person.

Multi-cultural

To my multi-cultural visitors of my blog... Happy New Year!

I was surprised that there are many visitors from Europe, insular Asia, North America and even parts of Africa and Latin America.

Even if you stumble here in my humble and personal blog, I welcome you and shake you warmly by my virtual hand.


Actually, I'm not much in a blogger mode lately... or actually whenever I have thoughts, the internet is unavailable and whenever I actually have connection, I can't seem to piece my thoughts. Anyway, I'm leaving my discernment for another time.

Cheers and let's enjoy the holiday together!