The Last Time I Felt Like This

One of my favorite duets. =) I've been dying to watch the movie.

Hello, I dont even know your name, but I'm hopin' all the same

This is more than just a simple hello.

Hello, do i smile and look away? No, i think i'll smile and stay

To see where this might go.

'Cause the last time I felt like this, I was falling in love,

Falling and feeling, I'd never fall inlove again.

Yes the last time I felt like this, was long before i knew

What I'm feeling now with you.

Hello, I can't wait till we're alone, somewhere quiet on our own

So that we can fall the rest of the way.

I know that before the night is thru, I'll be talking love to you

Meaning every word I say.

'Cause the last time I felt like this I was falling in love,

Falling and feeling, I'd never fall in love again.

Yes, the last time i felt like this, was long before i knew

What I'm feeling now with you.

Oh, the last time I felt like this i was falling in love,

Falling and feeling, I'd never fall in love again

Yes, the last time I felt like this, was long before I knew

What I'm feeling now with you.

Times Forgotten

This morning, I booked myself a flight to Kalibo by end of October. It's been a while since I visited mom's place of birth... 8 years to be exact. The last time I went there was when I was in high school.

That time, it was only me and mom who visited Lola Nancy, her siblings and my cousins. We used to go there on summer holidays. It's either Silay or Malinao for 2 months of going back to basics. Of course there's tv, electricity and running water.. but on summer days, kids play out on the street, swim in the nearby rivers, sleep early in the afternoon and pray the Angelus every 6pm.

Life in the barrio is very very different than in the city. Sometimes, I realize how much comfort I have at home, when most of my cousins still walk 5 kilometers just to get to school on their very thin slippers, braving the weather and the muddy roads.

I'm thinking that as I spend my week with my relatives, it's going to feel longer than an 'urban week'. I'm thinking of bringing some books to read or a journal. Among other things:

1. Talk to Lola Nancy and see how she's doing.
2. Bring an awful lot of insect repellent lotion. Gawd, mosquitos there are mutants.
3. Bring a plug-in insect repellent.. you'll never know when a cockroach strikes.
4. Sunblock... maybe a sudden roadtrip to Bora
5. Bikinis...refer to #4
6. Visit Sister Claire in Bulabod. Maybe I'll get to finish those stations of the cross...
7. Hiking boots.. refer to #6
8. Food trip in Malinao or Kalibo
9. Visit relatives in Kalibo.. make myself known after all these years

Come to think of it.. maybe my week won't be such a dud. I have a lot to catch up. After all, my mom's family is almost half the people in the town. =)

Reeling my Emotions

My poor baby! He hasn't slept very well the past 3 days because of work. I was terribly worried about his project... it was so off and out of control! I'm really glad it's nearing its end.

My brother knocked on my door just 5 minutes ago. He told me the flight we were planning this Saturday was cancelled. We were supposed to go to Vigan and back but he told me that the airport there was under renovation. Plus, he was supposed to build hours but then (stupid) PAL realized that he had enough hours already to be admitted. Stupid good-for-nothing airline. I've got nothing to smile about.

I'm soooo disappointed I wanted to wail and shout and cry. I hate it when things don't go my way and I can't do anything to stop it. But then again, my mom told me that everything happens for a reason. I believe her. If it is not yet our time to fly, then I will wait for the next opportunity.

Life's Surprises

It was only last week that we buried our beloved mother, Cory Aquino. She was considered the mother of the free Filipino people who restored democracy. It was a dark and stormy day when they announced her death on August 1.

Her burial was a special non-working holiday in the country. That day, I went to Joey's house. As soon as I went inside, rain pummeled the streets. I was thankful I didn't have an umbrella with me. I said hi to his parents before we went off to RVM in N. Domingo St to visit Lola Sinta.

We were more than surprised when she asked us about our relationship. That happiness should not be the only thing that would sustain our relationship. It immediately felt like an orals exam with our theo/philo teacher.

I told her that I never thought life would be so much happier with Joey around (naksss). I've always felt that I want to be better and be a better person. And of course, I'm very much in love with him and I feel that even if that phase is gone, my genuine love is still there.

The love and care he gives me is so much more than what I ask for. He has taken good care of me and has never done anything that would hurt me. I love him for that. =)

We had lunch with Lola Sinta at QC Sports Club. We were watching TV, which was showing Cory's casket being circled around Intramuros. Hundreds and thousands of Filipinos braved the weather just to be with her. They were all wearing yellow and was waving the "laban" sign she was very famous for.

After lunch, we dropper her off in the convent before we headed to Starbucks to study for GRE. Our GRE is scheduled on November and we're reviewing as early as now, especially the math part. I've gotten horrible at math. I'm glad Joey's there to help me out. He's so much smarter than me in math and he knows all the shortcuts to solving problems... hehehe.

Today he's in Laguna for his project's cutover. Yesterday, we had brunch in Bonifacio High Street and watched brainless zombie movies (Dawn of the Dead). He's not much of a horror flick fan but I liked the plotless killing and splatter of human and zombie flesh.

We went around the place, browsing through books and enjoying the good weather for once before he would check in at Linden Suites.

Sometimes, the time you had with a loved one isn't enough. The words you say to that person could not really capture the feelings gushing in you. But I guess that's what makes a relationship special. It will take the rest of your lives to understand the incomparable, incomprehensible love you share and the unimaginable, overwhelming desire to be one with that person.

Yes, I'm in love. =)