Has it been this long since I last blogged?
Things have been tough... tough may not be the right word... different may be the better term.
Things have been different and I'm still getting the hang of it. For most of my life, I've lived a life of romance with TV personalities, anime characters and the occasional college cutie. I've never really imagined myself having a love affair (at this time).
Wading through my high school (and even grade school) friends' facebook accounts, everyone seems to be settling down. Either they're engaged, married or already have kids. Seeing myself, I don't think I'll be able to settle down and have a family at this time. Heck, I don't think I can take care of myself!
Having a family is no laughing matter. Sure, you get to have a happy ever after with your loved one, but life starts after honeymoon. I wouldn't be one to judge what happens after that, after all, I'm not married.
I'm starting this relationship. We're fairly recent. We're nearing our 3rd month but we've been going out for about half a year. I've really admired him for being able to look past my flaws.. or maybe he has learned to embrace them?? Whatever that is, he's very different from the other guys.
But between the two of us, he's more.. how do I say this... in-tune with his emotions than I am. Some even say that I'm the guy in the relationship. Not that I'm stoic or I care less... but it seems that he's more open with his feelings than I am. Sad to say, I am not yet able to fully open up to him. Maybe because I'm scared of being vulnerable. And of course, what my parents always tell me, "Girls have more to lose than guys". Of course, I don't want guys to have the upper hand. As mom always told me, "save some for yourself."
Maybe it'll take a long time before I can really open up to someone other than people in my family.